I feel like my ADD is getting worse as time goes on, and I may have to seek medical attention for my lack of an attention span. Haha!
So... I'm going to post the bits and pieces of blogs I've started into this one, since I've pretty much forgotten my original points that I meant for them anyways. :P
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I made this little do-dad for my thirty day challenge today.
The days picture was "something that had impacted my life recently", and I decided that change had most effected my life lately. With everything going on with my parents, learning that their relationships status didn't define me or my own relationships, it wasn't a hard decision.
I love making stuff on Picnik. Whoever invented that website is a genius. It's so nice to be able to edit pictures and create wonderful things from already wonderful things.
On another note,Today is the second consecutive rainy day in Forks, Boiling Springs after our wonderful weekend tease of heat and sunshine. Me, Jez, and Allison all laid out and read on Saturday. OH and the most amazing thing about that is that we read books for fun.
I made this little do-dad for my thirty day challenge today.
The days picture was "something that had impacted my life recently", and I decided that change had most effected my life lately. With everything going on with my parents, learning that their relationships status didn't define me or my own relationships, it wasn't a hard decision.
I love making stuff on Picnik. Whoever invented that website is a genius. It's so nice to be able to edit pictures and create wonderful things from already wonderful things.
On another note,Today is the second consecutive rainy day in Forks, Boiling Springs after our wonderful weekend tease of heat and sunshine. Me, Jez, and Allison all laid out and read on Saturday. OH and the most amazing thing about that is that we read books for fun.
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Okay, so...
As I explained several posts ago, I have been talking to a guy on and off since September. We had some rough patches at the beginning, and one not too long ago... but now we're here. I haven't quite decided where "here" is, but I really like here (minus still waiting for him to ask me to be his girlfriend... haha!)
Anyway, it's been a long time since I've liked anyone as much as I like this guy. Like, since middle school. We went on a couple of dates earlier on and I just didn't feel that "i'm excited about this guy!" spark. Well, last Friday night we went to dinner, and even though it was just a normal dinner date, it was the best date I've ever been on. I just feel comfortable around him, and happy, and excited, and not afraid that I'm going to say something stupid or mess things up because it's okay. He understands that I want to keep God and my beliefs first, and he himself is devoted to God. I feel like in that aspect we could grow together if we dated. We have a lot of things and goals in common, and I feel like that too is one of the biggest things you have to have in a relationship if its gonna work out. He has stuck around through some of the hardest times I've faced in my life, and I feel like if he'll put up with that, he must really care.
This brings up a whole new fear though... I'm afraid I'm gonna care more about him than he is about me. I have held back the entire time we've been talking to avoid getting hurt when I just knew he was gonna up and stop talking to me one day, but now, I'm ready to let myself go.
As I explained several posts ago, I have been talking to a guy on and off since September. We had some rough patches at the beginning, and one not too long ago... but now we're here. I haven't quite decided where "here" is, but I really like here (minus still waiting for him to ask me to be his girlfriend... haha!)
Anyway, it's been a long time since I've liked anyone as much as I like this guy. Like, since middle school. We went on a couple of dates earlier on and I just didn't feel that "i'm excited about this guy!" spark. Well, last Friday night we went to dinner, and even though it was just a normal dinner date, it was the best date I've ever been on. I just feel comfortable around him, and happy, and excited, and not afraid that I'm going to say something stupid or mess things up because it's okay. He understands that I want to keep God and my beliefs first, and he himself is devoted to God. I feel like in that aspect we could grow together if we dated. We have a lot of things and goals in common, and I feel like that too is one of the biggest things you have to have in a relationship if its gonna work out. He has stuck around through some of the hardest times I've faced in my life, and I feel like if he'll put up with that, he must really care.
This brings up a whole new fear though... I'm afraid I'm gonna care more about him than he is about me. I have held back the entire time we've been talking to avoid getting hurt when I just knew he was gonna up and stop talking to me one day, but now, I'm ready to let myself go.
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I am so two-sided on the subject of the future.
The first side is my excited side. I am so ready to get out of Nursing school and on with my life. This experience with college has been wonderful outside of the classroom, but inside, it's nothing but constant frustration. I feel like my brain is seriously overloaded, and when I try to make room for something new, I end up forgetting something I needed. I swear my memory issues didn't start until I entered Nursing school. I love nursing though! I know it's what I want to do, and if school didn't go as I plan for it to go, I would definitely go somewhere else and do whatever I had to to make it work. That's what makes school even more frustrating! I love clinicals, I love my patients, and I just want to be left alone and given a job and allowed to move forward from school. I feel like there are some amazing things in my future. I'm dating a guy right now that makes me excited. He's so great. And meeting him and dating him makes me think even more about my future, (no, not like I want to marry him now or anything! haha) as far as having a family of my own and being in that stage of life. I look so forward to it, and I can't help but feel like school just holds me back. It's ironic how school builds your future, and at the same time keeps you from it.
Then there's the other side of me.
I am terrified of the future. I messed up with my nursing school last year, meaning I have one more strike and I'm out. I'm doing better, and getting the hang of things, but I still panic. If I were to mess up, it would have been like I was in school for nothing. Nursing credits don't transfer from school to school, so I would be starting over. I honestly don't know if I could start over and do all of this all over again... it's been such a hard and trying ride already. So there's the giant looming question mark over that area of my life. It all just so much depends, and you never know what will happen tomorrow until you're there. I'm scared that I like this guy like I do. I've never really liked anyone as much as I like him. He's been there for me through some tough times, he likes me just for me, and he's just a really good guy. I worry that it will end up biting me in the face in the end...
The first side is my excited side. I am so ready to get out of Nursing school and on with my life. This experience with college has been wonderful outside of the classroom, but inside, it's nothing but constant frustration. I feel like my brain is seriously overloaded, and when I try to make room for something new, I end up forgetting something I needed. I swear my memory issues didn't start until I entered Nursing school. I love nursing though! I know it's what I want to do, and if school didn't go as I plan for it to go, I would definitely go somewhere else and do whatever I had to to make it work. That's what makes school even more frustrating! I love clinicals, I love my patients, and I just want to be left alone and given a job and allowed to move forward from school. I feel like there are some amazing things in my future. I'm dating a guy right now that makes me excited. He's so great. And meeting him and dating him makes me think even more about my future, (no, not like I want to marry him now or anything! haha) as far as having a family of my own and being in that stage of life. I look so forward to it, and I can't help but feel like school just holds me back. It's ironic how school builds your future, and at the same time keeps you from it.
Then there's the other side of me.
I am terrified of the future. I messed up with my nursing school last year, meaning I have one more strike and I'm out. I'm doing better, and getting the hang of things, but I still panic. If I were to mess up, it would have been like I was in school for nothing. Nursing credits don't transfer from school to school, so I would be starting over. I honestly don't know if I could start over and do all of this all over again... it's been such a hard and trying ride already. So there's the giant looming question mark over that area of my life. It all just so much depends, and you never know what will happen tomorrow until you're there. I'm scared that I like this guy like I do. I've never really liked anyone as much as I like him. He's been there for me through some tough times, he likes me just for me, and he's just a really good guy. I worry that it will end up biting me in the face in the end...
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I have always heard, and a little more so here recently, that girls should make a list of things they want in a guy. Then, when it comes to dating, you should see how your guy matches up against this list, and expect nothing less (now, your list has to be realistic).So... I feel like 20 is a prime time to make this list. I feel like I know what I want for myself and for my future to more of an extent now than I ever have.
Here's my List:
1. Good Christian Guy, who's faith is important to him.
2. He's gotta be a family man.
Here's my List:
1. Good Christian Guy, who's faith is important to him.
2. He's gotta be a family man.
3. Loves kids.
4. Loves dogs/animal in general.
5. Not afraid to get outside and do the country stuff.
6. Abby has to like him. (Haha!)
\7. He needs to have ambitions.
8. He has to want a family.
9. He has to accept me as I am.
10. He has to love me as I am.
Okay, so that's all I've got for now. I'm hoping that while I'm at the beach this coming week I can sit down and work on another blog and catch up with my own self. I feel like I have so much to say, and when I start saying it, it all runs together. I'll work on that. ;)
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